I know that you are very young still, and you probably won't ever see this, but I just have to get his off my chest.
You know that I love you, that I'll always love you no matter what.
But sometimes I really don't like you.
Let me explain.
Some mornings, you laughter and smiles are the best things in the world to wake up to. Sometimes your little coos and babble makes my heart explode from pure joy and adoration. Some days your soft little fingers gently caressing my face and hair are the most wonderful gifts a mommy could ask for.
But some mornings mommy has a headache. Some mornings, after I was up late with you, all night long fighting to make you sleep, mommy doesn't enjoy your screeching giggles. Sometimes when I don't feel well, I just want to hide under the covers and stay warm, and your cold little fingers scratching my eyes out are not appreciated. Some days, I would rather you play far away from me, instead of smashing me in the face with a plastic phone. Some mornings, I really don't want to get out of bed to make you and Daddy breakfast.
But I love you so much, my little boy, that I keep going despite the smelly poops first thing in the morning. I still want your snuggles and hugs, even though you pinch me and scratch me when you squeeze my neck.
I might not like you all the time, Son, but never stop loving you.
So just know that when I'm not smiling at you, or I'm slamming pots and pans around in the kitchen, it's because I don't like you right now, but I still love you with all my heart.
Love,
Your very tired, overworked, slightly out of it Mommy.
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